“If you could return to the past to relive a part of your life, either to experience the wonderful bits again, or to do something over, which part of you life would you return to? Why?”
During my teens, I didn’t have a sense of myself and tried very hard to fit in with popular kids as a way to validate myself during this awkward period. I didn’t know who I was and desperately tried to fit in.
In my 20s, I continued and carried the same baggages from my teens with me. I was lost and didn’t have goals set up in my life. The best thing I did for myself around this time was moving from Los Angeles to San Francisco. This decision allowed me to be on my own for the first time and forced myself to grow up quickly and fast. Slowly and gradually, I was able to create my own footprint and creating an identify for myself.
Finally, I was on tracked with both my professional and personal lives in my 30s. I worked hard for my job and felt secure for the first time to enjoy the fruits of my success. However, this happiness didn’t last long and my peaceful life was shattered to pieces when I was around 38. I unexpected lost my partner due to unforeseen circumstances, and I had to be strong to deal with my loss.
Still grieving about my partner’s passing, I also had to take a close look at my career and made changes in my early 40s. Luckily I was able to move to New York City with my then job and it was the perfect opportunity to move on with my life and past.
I had to adjust my new life in New York City fast and it included re-evaluating my career situation, tried to figure out how to stay relevant in a dying industry.
Fast forward to 2015, this year became a turning point for me. I took the whole year off so I could focused on learning something completely different in order to stay competitive and relevant in this job market. I was happy with learning a new set of skills, building projects from the ground up and meeting good people through out this process to enrich my life.
If I could turn back time, I don’t think I would change anything differently. It is my chosen path to experience with love, success, sorrow and failure. Without facing them from the past, I would not be the person that I have become today. So onward with 2016 and I can feel that it will be an amazing year for me to grow and evolve into something better again.